Getting to Accept Myself
Being able to complete a masters project took me 24 years especially because I was afraid to complicated is a masters project and I only had to do a presentation in class. At that time, the only thing that I was required to do was to make the presentation in front of the academic advisors and also, my classmates and that will be done. I was also required to bring family members and friends on the day that I was making the presentation so that they could sit in and listen to the speech. I invited the speech therapist that had been working with but I told my friends and family to stay at home without coming for the interview. In order for me to be able to speak fluently, the speech therapist brought some lip balm that was kept in her purse. In order to boost my confidence and ensuring that everything was right, she ensure that she did an inspection of the notecards that are brought along for the presentation. I had a speech impediment and it was the major problem and something that cause a lot of fear in me.
The speech impediment was a problem that I inherited from my dad who had also developed because of being shuffled between many different dads especially during the adolescent years. At the beginning, the speech impediment was not a problem for me especially because I did not see a major problem with it but after seven years, I was enrolled in some speech therapy classes. Because of this reason, I had to leave the class a little early and I gave some excuses to my friends to avoid them knowing what this was about. Many of the times, you can give a lot of excuses for situation and that’s what I did but you cannot sustain it if you now start repeating some of the excuses. Most of the peoples in elementary school never think a lot about people’s behaviors and therefore, they were very quick to forgive and move on. My friends did not even ask any questions when I tell them that I’m going for advanced classes it was another excuse.
Being introverted, I never liked the questions that people used to ask in middle school because they started noticing some changes. During my seventh grade, I actually had a very nasty encounter with a kid known as Jason.
As I continued growing this is something that I continue to face a lot and this is something that also disturbed me a lot even when I got my first job.